Exploring your personality, self reflection, sharing your emotions, these are just some of the characteristics of a journal or diary. If this describes it at all, then “Dear Sweet Filthy World” by greygirlbeast has it down pat! I found archived material from 2004 to present day and boy does it change dramatically. In 2004 entries seem more for the audience. The titles fit the entry like a book and she even apologizes for certain language she chooses to use. By the time 2015 comes around she has definitely found her journaling voice and apologizes for nothing. I’d like to note, she hates winter, with a vulgar passion. It’s her authentic voice that brings this and so many more daily thoughts and events clearly to the screen. She is a writer/editor or just a writer who proofs her own work at times, I’m sorry that wasn’t clear to me. She now also signs every entry “Aunt Beast.” Maybe it’s just me but the titles now are less of a journal type prompt and more of another thought that comes before the rest, like a diary, a diary or a journal that is surely written as though it was for her eyes only. Filled with grammatical and spelling errors it’s easy to see each post was written in the moment. Would you go back and proofread your own thoughts if you’re writing something just for you?
This journal is a daily account of the how she feels that day. Whether is writer’s block, complete and utter hatred for winter, bouts of insomnia or total depressing thoughts which quite frankly made it a downer to read. Seriously is winter that bad? While she goes on in fits of hating people and her surroundings I was obviously still reading it for some reason. As I sit all tough behind my screen judging her and her pathetic views of the inevitable weather I realized how effective this blog is. Her authenticity brought to light, if I sat down and wrote daily thoughts that I privately keep in, the public would definitely see my dark side as well.
Greygirlbeast does an awesome job keeping her blog real. I found this differs slightly from Anne Frank’s “The Diary of a Young Girl” because when Anne decides she wants her journal to be published she goes back into entries and makes notes that are from a later date. Does she do this so it’s better understood by her when she had hoped to read it later, or to make it more understandable for her audience?
Both greygirlbeast and Anne Frank change their sign off. Greygirlbeast went from nothing to “Aunt Beast” and Anne Frank from using only her first name to both first and last, sometimes even including her middle initial “Anne M. Frank”, why? Does the change in identity when you are writing in a journal something you do for yourself, or how you want to be seen by your audience? This poses the question, can you really ever write just for yourself when the public can see your words?